note to myself :)

dont know what i feel. dont know what to do.
do i have to angry or not. do i have to leave him or not. do i have to leave them or not.
we took the wrong way. and we still wrong. even everyone had known. we’re still on the wrong way. keep wrong. and i dont know how to end up this.
do i have to leave you or not.
tired. and i dont wanna feel like this anymore.
so what i have to say to you?
so i’ve to leave you, lose you, and the end. but not at all. this feel still working. i dont know when it would stop.
been a month. and the sin has been like a mountain. and more i act like i dont care, more i hate my self.
i hate the facts that im stupid. i hate the fact that im bad, and they’re not. and they are keep talking about this, and this head had blew up. and i dont know to whom i would angry.
so i have to lose you. even you beg to me not to leave you. but i cant hide this anymore. everyone will know. we will be separated.

and this feeling keep working on you.
in fact maybe i can lose you but my heart not.